It’s been awhile. It’s been five months since I’ve blogged. I’ve been home almost three. Taking everything in. Staying busy. Enjoying quality time with my people. And for the first time in my life, not having to be anywhere at all. I’m flying out in the morning for California with a best friend. As manyContinue reading “Hello Again”
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My Shoes
I need no sympathy. No attention. And definitely don’t try to gloat on the rewards it has given. Merely here to get you up and moving. To show you that you can too. No matter the path you’re on. Or off of. What you’ve been given. Or had taken away. There are so many sacrificesContinue reading “My Shoes”
Released
Soaking up the sun this week.And then on the run again next week. Next stop, Salt Lake City. Doing a quick assignment before the holidays. I will have traveled over 12k miles since July. I’ve been patient. Kind to myself. Embraced my healing process. With that, I have been given opportunities that have drastically changedContinue reading “Released”
Starting Over
Whew. Those were some long months. I could have kept Indiana green with some of my tears. I kept everyone in the loop with my struggle. The support has been amazing. And I thank each and every one of you for reaching out. Seems like such a silly thing to keep whining about it. ButContinue reading “Starting Over”
Little Less Broken
It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. I had the best trip to Arizona. Learned a lot about myself. Spent a lot of time with myself over the 6 weeks in a hotel room. Worked a lot. Made enough money to not work the rest of the year or more. If I choose. Right now, everythingContinue reading “Little Less Broken”
Inside Out
You hear “spiritual journey” and you think immediately… weirrrrdo. It’s actually not. It’s a journey that most of us do not understand or even take the time to understand. Two messages I received today were asking for “positive vibes” and “self enlightening energy”. They both are struggling with things that have been heavy for awhile.Continue reading “Inside Out”
My LOA
It’s no secret that I took a LOA from my job I have had for over 10 years. It had nothing to do with my job. And everything to do with me. I took a chance on myself. For once. To do something I thought would be good for me. And something I have alwaysContinue reading “My LOA”
Note To Self
Talk nice to yourself. Be confident. Own it. Take the damn selfie. It’s not a sign of mental illness if you don’t have to remind people you have boobs. Take the trip. You can always make more money. Go back to school. Don’t ever let someone belittle you for being more educated than them. GetContinue reading “Note To Self”
Thank You, Next..
Dating. Eww. The thought of it makes me have anxiety. And I’ve never had anxiety before. Ever. I’ve been on a couple dates in the last few months. They’ve been nothing more than an incense that I keep trying to light, that keeps burning out. However, I did not burn my thumb. I just politelyContinue reading “Thank You, Next..”
How will you respond to your wound?
I sometimes wonder if I am sent places on purpose. I went to church at 9am this morning. Less people, more focus. Today was about “Encounters”. He spoke about wounds. Wounds that you wrestle with and lose the battle to. I think we all have had these at one point in our life. Infidelity, death,Continue reading “How will you respond to your wound?”
Say it again.
Feel it, Heal it
I struggled for the first couple, maybe few, months after my relationship ended. I did everything “getting past your breakup” (Susan Elliott) told me not to. I emailed him. Made excuses for him to come over. Had him in my bed. Cried. Felt rejected. Felt less than. Wasted time. Questioned. Daily. All of it. ThenContinue reading “Feel it, Heal it”
“Make peace with your past, be in the now”
This is Joni. My numerologist. Not a psychic. She’s been a driving force in my recreation and learning myself. Where I’m going. Where I’ve been. She teaches me to rise up, embrace the healing process and release anything that doesn’t serve me. I stay in constant contact with her as my numbers are always shifting.Continue reading ““Make peace with your past, be in the now””
Show Up
I paused for a few years on selfies. My focus was shifted. It wasn’t on myself. I’m here now. I’m showing up. Curling my hair. Wearing lipstick. Embracing my feminine side. Saying yes to everything I’m asked to join. Being the best daughter, mother and friend I’ve ever been. Erasing names and faces but keepingContinue reading “Show Up”
Looking Ahead
Moved on from the big breakup. Survived the heat of Covid-19. Passed 15 weeks of Statistics. FULL acceptance into Psych NP program. San Diego, CA July. Santa Rosa, FL in August. Monterey, CA in September. All in the last 105 days. Whatever it is you’re going through, you will survive. I promise. I thought IContinue reading “Looking Ahead”
Fresh Start
My vanity showed a bit when I had to move into an apartment after my relationship ended in February. Owning my own home before him, by myself, was an accomplishment that I thought I had ripped away from myself. I cried for days when I sold my home. It was something I wanted to doContinue reading “Fresh Start”